So I've decided... (little post)

...that I really like Blogger. The format, the customization, just the whole thing-a-ma jigger. It's just all good. Not why I'm posting today though. I decided a while back that I was going to write a fantasy novel and the place to store that is on a second blog, which you may have noticed already, but either way, check it out, http://aoruksquest.blogspot.com/ just in case you were interested.

Update-erroonie

So the bathroom I mentioned in the first blog I posted is finished and it's pretty friggin' sweet. Granted I never use it, but the really sweet thing is that I don't have to share a bathroom with 5 other people. Awesome!

As you can see from the left hand side of my blog, I'm a big fan of Webcomics, there three or four I read religiously, and about a dozen more I follow on an irregular basis. I don't know where this is going, other than to say that the majority of all webcomics I've ever found appeal to some form of Gamer or other, be it tabletop RPGS, to PC and Console Videogames. I've realized something about the extent of my gamer-ness. It goes rather deep. I love many video games, but PC games from the late nineties and original NES games have a special place in my heart. I've recently, that is to say the last few months, rediscovered a burning passion to play tabletop RPGS, things like D&D and various White Wolf games, Mage, Exalted, Vampire, etc. I don't think I could enjoy going without for very long. I play with two different groups each once a week.

Well, I still have to sleep, as I've mentioned in my last three blogs, but it's still true today. I love you all.

Me no sleepy!!

Gah! I always want to write these on days I am about to get so little sleep it's ridiculous! One thing is that I want to follow these bits of inspiration to write even if it's about the most mundane of things. I decided I'd write a fantasy novel. I've always had bits of fantasy ideas jumping around in my head, but I decided to put it in gear, even if a very low one at first, and slap them onto metaphorical paper, metaphorical as they are being typed into my laptop.
I keep my life complicated, I've noticed. I have to juggle things so they are almost falling apart, because that keeps me on my toes. The problem with that is that when three or more things fall at once, I only have two hands to catch with and I wind up with the fecal matter/rotor collision catastrophe, so to speak. I wish I knew how I could just knock it off, that would be nice, but not an answer for today.
Well, I think that's all for tonight. I love you all, those who have enough interest in reading my ramblings and hose who don't, but then they won't be the ones reading this

Sleep is needed

I should be sleeping, but things want to come out instead. I feel like my head is going to explode sometimes but that's not much different from any other day. specificially dealing with living with my now ex-girlfriend which most people didn't know I was living with in the first place. it was pretty hush hush. I feel like I want to get things off my chest/heart/soul because I've gotten tired of carrying all sorts of stuff that is really unnecessary. I decided I wanted to move in with my girlfriend at the time about three months ago. It didn't end terribly, but our romantic relationship did in fact end, so I'm living with my ex, her brother, his girlfriend and their two kids. I'm still friends with my ex, but still uncomfortable all around with the whole living situation.
Gah! I have a love/hate relationship with my job. some parts of it I could be happy doing 60 hours a week if they let me, but most of it is absolutely the equivilent of wading through feces, Gah! New job is in my near future, thanks for that.
I know I'm going home for christmas, it might just be the week after christmas, I'll figure it out, I'll be in Spokane in December regardless. I'm looking forward to it greatly

I'm still alive

That's always a good thing. The last week has been one of the most event filled times in my life, it has been great, although painful at times. My girlfriend Stacey and I ended our romantic relationship on relatively decent terms. This was the more painful of recent experiences. I don't believe any relationship should feel good because otherwise, why would you be in it in the first place? Anyways, the majority of the situation is that we've been headed in different directions for a while now and I realized that it really needed to change and took action on it. I'm not going to get into the specifics of what led up to the conversation, but we sat down are talked about how essentially I'm not ready to have a committed relationship yet and that's where she's headed, she wants to settle down and have kids, where as I would like to hang out with my friends til 7am because I feel like it. I also staffed at The Great Life Foundation, which was great, made new connections with people, re-affirmed old connections, found some inspiration as I always do and wrote a few poems, although I'll have to find them before I can post them. They're probably not very good, but it feels good to have that 9 month drought over with.
Anyways, I am still alive and kicking, I am truly tapping into my nerdiness. I've become more and more a fan of table top RPGs, you know, like Dungeons and Dragons, I'd do it for a living if I could. I am realizing that I am close to ridiculously nerdy compared to most of the people I know. Except for my friend Jim who knows more about Star Trek than I think any person rightfully should.
I guess it feels like a season of change is in the wind, it was like that last december, strange.